Last year I just stopped writing on this blog. I had lost my faith in writing and I didn’t know what to do. To be honest, writing just wasn’t a priority of mine. It was very difficult to find a quiet moment to get the thoughts out of my mind. I was burnt out and I felt like my words were not making a difference and it really didn’t matter.
It was a season in my life where I had to face the tension that comes when growth happens. Sometimes when spiritual growth happens we can find ourselves grieving all that we valued in our lives.
In the past year I have had to redefine so much in my life besides writing; including my relationship with God, the church, my writing, me as a parent, and my marriage. During growth there will come moments where you realize that the old ways are just not working. You begin to see the weeds that are choking out the seeds.
Last year I thought I didn’t have the time to write. But the reality was the weeds in my life were choking out my inspiration and motivation.
I got to the point where I was going to quit, and I was OK with that.
There was a huge sense of peace and relief when I just surrendered it all to God. I still need to surrender so much to Him in my personal life. For now I think it is easy to surrender my writing and what happens to Him completely.
That’s where faith begins, isn’t it? The act of surrender, and then moving forward even though you can’t see what is ahead of you.
Even though I lost my faith in writing it was one of the greatest times of growth in my life.
- I have learned that quitting can also be surrender.
- I quit writing just to write in order to meet a deadline, or to make sure I have a lot of content on my blog.
- I quit allowing the negative comments or the rejection to stop defining my worth and the worth of my writing.
- I quit looking for perfection on my blog and in my writing, and I have embraced grace once again.
- I quit looking at the disappointment and I realized that I was not a failure after all.
- I quit believing the negative and I am now choosing to believe in the positive. We all believe in something, and even though we may not be in control of every circumstance that comes our way, we do have a choice on what we believe, think about, and how we talk about that situation.
Through surrender, I got my faith in writing back.
This journey has been a good one and it has been filled with so much of God’s grace. I do have a hope and a plan for this blog. But I did want my readers to know that I have quit the old ways of writing, and I am learning to embrace the new ways of writing in my life.